False Awakening – Ruben Bailey

August 18, 2019

It’s Time

August 18, 2019

Last night’s dream came somewhere in the middle of the night when suddenly I sensed someone’s presence beside my bed. This person was here to announce “The Phone Call” meaning it was time for labor. I had not heard the phone ring but I assumed if someone had to come get me out of bed I had better get up.

I immediately stood up out of bed and looked around to gather my composure and ascertain what is happening to me. At first, my world was befuddled and unclear. I am frustrated I am unable to wake up fully yet I stand in the feet of the man who has announced the call. I imagine if I am dreaming, I must be having an out of body experience. I struggle to break free to move from this stand. If I am dreaming I must be able to fly. I struggle to take flight but a tether seems to keep me connected to the dreaming man. Is he not hearing the phone ring? Does he not recognize the urgency which surrounds him?

Unable to awaken the man, I am determined to find out if the call is real. I seem to be able to move in the direction from which the call is originating. The direction is Richmond. I set on my way there. The journey is long.

I can’t remember specific details after this point. What I do recall was what it felt like to travel there. The journey was so profoundly incredible. I recall thinking in the dream there is so much here to remember how will I ever journal this. I knew in the dream there was no way I could put the experience to words. In the end, I came away with a great sense of accomplishment and success at getting there on time and being a part of the experience of birthing my child into the world. An experience I am sure never to forget.

~~~~~~~~~ DREAM ENDS

Just out of curiosity I looked up the meaning of Richmond.

The name Richmond is a German Baby Name. In German Baby Names the meaning of the name Richmond is: Strong protector.

March 23, 2019

Fisher of an Asian Man

March 23, 2019

In last nights dream, I am away from home at my work site. I see many trucks and construction men around me. They are breaking ground to build a new work site. I become aware of a fissure in the foundation which threatens to divide the site. I somehow know this fissure to be in my house also as it’s effects are felt by the entire neighborhood. I decide to leave the job site and travel back home to secure my belongings. My house is just a few blocks away and adjacent to the job site. There is havoc as people scurry to evacuate the area. The rush of people is causing delays in getting home. A truck driver offers me a ride. Assuming this to be the speediest route home, I accept.

Once in the truck, it becomes apparent he would need to travel the long way around the work site to get to my house. The offer now seems a bit backhanded as it really was of no help to me and is taking me further out of my way. I decide to get off and head back to the parking lot to cut through to the other side. I feel the urgent need to poop but I still have a long way to go. A small wet fart slips out which causes me to soil my pants. While in the parking lot, I ask one of the cleaning ladies if she can offer me a restroom where I can clean up a bit. She offers one of her janitor closets which has a small shallow sink with fresh water and some paper towels. I clean up a bit but notice the poop is alive with fish and tiny animals. It is a muddy river teaming with life. Where the poops runs into the clear waters in the sink I examine the various life forms. There are animals of all kinds. This is not standard poop but poop which must be preserved.

After depositing all the poop into the small utility sink with water I leave to continue my journey home. I have very little time to get there so I decide to travel in somewhat unconventional ways. I assume I must be dreaming and therefore must have special powers within this dream. Taking an example from one of the frogs in the sink I decide to try to leap frog my way out of the parking structure. My leap frogging works and I am able to quickly scale my way out of the parking structure only to find it does not exit out where I need to be. Once again, I am confronted with having to find an alternate route.

The animals from my poop are now fully constituted and offer me other resources and new ideas for getting home. There is one fish who is especially beautiful and a gifted swimmer. Following his intuitive lead, I follow him to my home.

I am secure and safe in bed where I immediately have a false awakening. An Airbnb guest arrives. I hear him enter and walk up the steps to the second level. I get up out of bed knowing I already have a guest in the upstairs bedroom. I am greeted by an Asian man and his 10 yrs old son. Something unusual catches my attention about the Asian man I recognize him from before and if I do it must be a guest who previously stayed with me and is returning. Knowing I haven’t changed the pass-code on the door I assume he simply used the old pass-code to enter the house. The boy runs into my bedroom to play with things in my room as if this was his home. At the top of the stairs I explain to the man I already have a guest staying with me and don’t have available space to accommodate him. I sense he has come for an ulterior motive. I sense he is secretly attracted to me. I can see he is getting an erection in his pants. I don’t think it is a match since I am generally not attracted to Asian men. He excuses himself and proceeds to leave with his son.

It occurs to me to check to see if my son is with me. I return to the my bedroom where his son was playing only to find the infant car seat is empty. I go into a panic wondering where I might have left my child and in who’s care did I leave him. I head downstairs where my nieces are gathered. I suspect one of them might have smuggled my child with them. My niece Ester smiles at me with a mouth full of teeth so white they look fake. She smiles a second time long enough for me to carefully examine her digital teeth. There is something electronic about them. Maybe it is the means she uses to whiten her teeth. As they leave, my niece Daisy is the last to say goodbye. She places her hand on my voicebox and transmits a message like a ventriloquist. I immediately feel the vibration of her voice within my voicebox but the sound is muffled I can not understand the words. The look on her face tells me she is very happy for me and is confident I will find my missing child.

I next walk toward one of my guest bedrooms passing through the kitchen and dinning room where the Asian man’s son is sitting at the table waiting for someone to feed him. Knowing the Asian man must still be in my house I open the other bedroom door. The Asian man is in there but blocks the door from opening fully. All I can see is his face and the baby blue t-shirt he wears. One thing which strikes me are his soft youthful features. I have a feeling my son is with the Asian man.

January 30, 2019

I HAVE A DREAM: Sunrise Splendor

January 30, 2019

This morning’s dream was so beautiful. I’ve never experienced anything like this. In the dream I had a false awakening where I believed I had been woken up by my cat. I couldn’t fall back asleep so I decide to go outside to see if I can see the sunrise. There is no real clear view of the sunrise from my house in waking life but in the false awakening I go outside. Across the street I see a field of grass. I believe it would offer me the best view of the sunrise. I cross the street. I can feel the cool blades of grass under my feet. Looking toward the sunrise the sky is still dark. As the sun peeks its head ever so slightly upon the horizon the sky bursts into a beautiful flaming red. I can see down to the Mall and all the monuments in DC including The Capital, The Washington Monument and the Lincoln. The sunlight reflects an the glass of the building and on the wet pavement something so bright I’ve never seen before.

I scuttle to position myself for the best view. I want to grab my camera because this is incredible. I am so captivated by the sun I am unable to act on my desire. Within no time, the sun is higher in the sky and the flaming reds give way to golden yellows and the blues of the sky. I am in utter awe of the beauty that is our earth and our National Monuments. Its a good day to be alive.

~~~~~ Dream Ends

With all the light shining in my eyes I awake to the realization that I wasn’t already awake. My alarm has yet to sound. I grab my phone to see the time and it is 7:40 am. I have 10 minutes of cuddle time with the dog and cats. I run to the bathroom and return to bed corralling the dog to snuggle with me. I immediately have a vision. I can see a person with shimmering light brown hair. I take in his or her facial features. I can’t seem to determine if it is a girl or a boy. The person is between 14 and 24 yrs old depending if he is a boy or a girl. The person is wearing bright yellow and green. The person is talking to me but I can’t hear a word. She stands at a 45 degree angle facing me as if she is getting ready to turn and walk away. I feel refreshed and renewed. I am inspired to access both my masculine and feminine. I feel connected to Gaia.

July 22, 2018

First Little Girl In Space

July 22, 2018

I had an amazing dream last night. I am traveling among the stars. At the very end I thought I was laying here in bed watching an educational program on TV. The images in my head were so crystal clear and the sound on the television was so clearly audible. The program was very interesting and fascinating. The program I could tell was coming to an end. They started talking about a little girl, the first little girl to travel in space. She was taken on a shuttle mission to fix something on one of our space satellites and to the moon. I can see the shuttle on the television flying past the satellite. It is approaching a round object which at first looks fuzzy. As we get closer, I immediately recognize it as the moon but it is not the moon we are accustomed to. It is a space ship much like the Death Star in Star Wars with some major differences. There are three lines that go across the surface of the sphere horizontally similar to the Death Star. One at the top around the +60 degree longitude and two in the southern hemisphere around -15 and -45 degree longitude. The lines are obviously viewing windows with blue light emanating from them. Between the two southern lines is a circular disk similar to the Death Star except this one appears to have the ability to rotate. The disk reminds me of the face on a quarts watch. Along the general surface of the moon are randomly shaped crystals that serve as viewing portals. The shuttle approaches the moon along the northern ring. This ring forms a continuous window which tells the history of the moon from it’s inception. The line doesn’t go all the way around. I can not see where it ends but I can see where it begins. The start of the window frame has a tapered aerodynamic shape. I think to myself why don’t we board the moon because then we can look out through the windows. I feel it has been such a long time since I’ve been on the moon. I wonder if no one is on-board the moon right now.

I can see the shuttle that is carrying the little girl. It looks like one of the triangular shaped stealth planes the government uses except this one is considerably thicker. People can actually stand up in them and walk around. The shuttle flies low in the sky allows me to clearly see detail. It is apparent it is doing these maneuvers specifically for me to witness. At one point it flies in a formation that allows me to see the tops of the wings which to my surprise are not dark grey like the rest of the aircraft but instead are a translucent white that conducts pastel shades of vibrant color. It also becomes apparent that it has the capability to fly not only horizontally but vertically by raising a section of flaps on the white surface of the wings. The flaps have an L shape when raised for this configuration.

Now earlier in the dream I am with a team of people. We have the ability to move between dimensions. I am in a world where everyone is asleep going about their business. They are doing fun day to day things but they are asleep unaware of their total existence. I am on an escorted tour of this world. I break away from the tour because I want to know what they are choosing to hide from me and the rest of the world. I can deduce that I am from this world and I too have been asleep for a very long time. The minute anyone wakes up they come at you to suppress you and force you back into a sleep state. They hold the reality in place for us to believe our subspace reality.

I come back to the tour guide and tell him that I have found an access door above this room. He gives me a wink and a node and tells me to go ahead and explore it while he continues the tour for the remaining people in my party. I climb to the highest place in the room and push the ceiling panels up. The panels give way exposing other realms and other dimensions of existence. I make my way out and I am able to see the world as it really is. I have the ability to fly and do incredible things. I seem to have no limits on my power to transcend space and time and move through dimensions.

The overlords quickly discover I have breached their barriers. I use this opportunity to understand what they are trying to protect or guard against, why the do so and how I am being manipulated into believing something that is not entirely true or is not the complete truth of who I am. Its the egg becoming the chicken and coincidentally overcoming fear. At some point I must mature that time is now.

I am trying to evade the authorities. They are there to keep the peace but it is in their interest. Now that I am awake, I have an inalienable right to be a full and ascended being to travel the universe and other dimensions to discover who I am. I have learned the process and I understand I too can hide from them and slip past them. They have been so focused on us down below that they have become somewhat myopic and have lost the ability to see in 360 degree views. This description seems to fit an analogy for which there are no words. Every button that is now available to me I can push and experience. I spend a great deal of time moving back and forth between dimensions. On occasion they would find where I was and try to come at me. I discover what triggers them to notice me which is when I focus my sight on them their reality begins to fall apart I seem to have the ability to see through them. They desire form and I am trying to escape form. Yet they have the ability to take form and move out of form. They seem to have two states of form one is similar to our physical reality and one in a higher dimension and above that a pure etheric form.

This little girl had taken the space flight to fix a satellite and to see the moon. I am thinking how could this little girl fix a satellite. I see the moon and the many little portal crystals scattered all over the moon that made it look like a planet. The many crystals watch me as I fly past them like people sitting on bleachers in a stadium cheering my passage. I look back to take in it’s beautiful golden metallic color.

What an amazing dream.

April 16, 2018

Jacobs Ladder

This is an old dream that i had maybe a year ago (2017). It has been forever present with me. It was more than just a dream or vision. It felt very real that it has not moved from my consciousness. I think about it all the time wanting to know more about it. Since my recent dream where I discovered I can replay an old dream I thought I should write this one down. A year ago I wasn’t journaling my dreams yet I still have them and the most powerful ones I do still remember. This is one of them.

I wake up in the dream to find that I have been asleep for many many years. I have not aged but somehow it is now at least 25 years into the future. I don’t know this until later in the dream. I am witnessing the President of the United States who doesn’t say a whole lot throughout the dream but his presence is known. It seems only some people are aware of me yet I am there among them. The President has an entourage of people around him constantly. I am observing all that is going on and I somehow I know the topics under discussion. We are all sleeping in close quarters several assistants along with the Press Secretary are constantly attending to the Presidents needs. The President is one of the one’s that is not aware of my presence or at least he has not acknowledged me directly. In the future they’ve made drugs such that they are no longer harmful. Even drugs that were once illegal now have versions that can be taken for pure pleasure with no harmful side affects. They have eliminated the substance abuse problem.

The President needs a prescription and therefore his personal medic is called in to administer the drug. A young man enters who is a member of the a naval academy. He is studying to be a doctor and can already prescribe medicine. He comes in and notices me but doesn’t say anything so I’m not sure he can actually see me or simply senses my presence. As the conversation continues I get more and more signals that confirm he is aware of me. It is as if I can hear his thoughts. The sound of his voice is so beautiful to me. His name is Jacob. He is such a caring individual with a deep curiosity for life. His desires are noble. He tells me he wants to change the world from the inside out. Although he is working for a Republican President he himself is not a Republican. He has only claimed to be a Republican to effect change. We seem to hit it off and begin playing on each other bantering back and forth. The Press Secretary also is fully aware and loves the young man and respects his naivete. His innocence is simply intoxicating. He tells me he finds me very attractive. Something else about life in this century is that sexual expression is more openly accepted as an exchange of energy. It’s not uncommon for people to be intimate and rejoice in one another’s presense. He again tells me he finds me very attractive. I ask for clarification to which he tells me that I am exactly the type of person he has always dreamt about being with. I ask him if he is gay to which he says that’s a thing of the past its more about being with the one you connect with and love. Somehow he understands I’m not from this time period. He then shows me how they are intimate with each other freely male and female without any hangups. He then comes to me and begins to pleasure me. The feeling of pleasure is overwhelming. I tell him I don’t date guys in their 20’s. He again emphasizes that he is in love with me as I AM EXACTLY what he has dreamt about. With his touch I can feel exactly what he is referring to. Knowing what he knows, I too now feel him and sense the connection. I am falling in love with this young navy cadet. He is paying me more attention than his responsibilities. He tells me to wait for him. While I wait he tells me to experience others as he has demonstrated. The sense of pleasure is overwhelming. I can hear a bit of scuttle between him and the President as he has neglected his duties in spending time with me. He then assures me that he has everything under control. I can still over hear the conversation but it sounds like he is loosing his patience with the President. I tell him I don’t want him to risk his career. He then asks me if I would love him regardless meaning if he didn’t have a career would I still love him to which I say of course. I now realize I’ve always wanted someone like him. I tell him to fulfill his duties and come home to sleep with me and cuddle with me. He is welcome to sleep with me anytime. I’m starting to get tired as sleep falls upon me. He is now in my bed cuddled with me late at night. I can feel his body pressed against my body. We dream of a time when we can be together forever.

When I woke up in the morning the presence of him was gone. I felt like I had allowed myself to fall asleep and allowed him to slip away. In my desire to recapture that moment I heard a voice say “You are him. You are the connection you seek.”

And Jacob went out from Beer-sheba, and went toward Haran. And he lighted upon the place, and tarried there all night, because the sun was set; and he took one of the stones of the place, and put it under his head, and lay down in that place to sleep. And he dreamed, and behold a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven; and behold the angels of God ascending and descending on it. And, behold, the LORD stood beside him, and said: ‘I am the LORD, the God of Abraham thy father, and the God of Isaac. The land whereon thou liest, to thee will I give it, and to thy seed. And thy seed shall be as the dust of the earth, and thou shalt spread abroad to the west, and to the east, and to the north, and to the south. And in thee and in thy seed shall all the families of the earth be blessed. And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee whithersoever thou goest, and will bring thee back into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.’ And Jacob awaked out of his sleep, and he said: ‘Surely the LORD is in this place; and I knew it not.’ And he was afraid, and said: ‘How full of awe is this place! this is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven.’

— Genesis 28:10-17 Jewish Publication Society (1917)

November 10, 2009

May I Clean Your Chandelier?

I went to bed early last night. My head was hurting so bad from crying so much over the break of my recent relationship with Lane. I had so many emotions wrapped up in my head that when I was falling asleep I kept hearing voices. They were the voices of many people. They were so loud and clear that they sounded as if they were in the room with me. I was so irritated because they would not shut up and they were too many voices at once to distinguish the context of the conversations.

I struggled to wake myself up to stop the voices. As I would come back into consciousness the voices would stop. I’d look around my bedroom and see the total darkness and stillness of my bedroom with only a dimmer of light coming in from the street.

Again I would close my eyes and try to fall asleep. Sleep came quickly and as the sleep paralysis would set in the voices would immediately begin. Again I’d struggle to wake up to regain control of my body to stop the voices. Each time I’d reawaken, the voices would immediately stop and I’d come to see the stillness of my bedroom. This happened several times repeatedly. The later and more tired I got and deeper I fell into sleep and the harder it became to reawaken myself to stop the voices.

I then began having false awakenings mixed in with the real awakenings. Eventually I got to the point where I would reawaken to the stillness of my room and immediately close my eyes and enter the false awakening while still fully conscious. In the false awakenings my bedroom became brighter as if I had night vision; I could see the people in my room; those responsible for the voices. There were many people present none who I recognized.

I am irritated that these people have given themselves the liberty of invading my personal space. With my arm I reach out to grab the person closest to me. I point at each person singling them out one by one to let them know I am aware of their presence and there exact location in my dream. But like ghosts my physical movements had no effect on them they simply ignored me. I swung my physical arms harder to make them aware of my disapproval. Finally surrendering to the futility of my efforts, I simply ignored them and fell deeper into the dream.

Angered by their invasion of my personal space, I decide to pick up my belongings and go home. The only belongings I have here in this dimension are a massive crystal chandelier with many fragile pieces and an avocado green upright Hoover vacuum cleaner just like the one my mom had when I was a kid. I am angry with myself. Why do I have this chandelier here in the first place? Why in the world did I remove it from my home to bring it here? The chandelier has been here for so long and uncared for that the glass is completely tarnished yet I know it still has intrinsic value worth keeping so I must take it home with me. I’m embarrassed that the crystals are so dirty from neglect. I grab a cloth sack with a draw string and place the many crystal pieces of varying lengths in the sack. I am careful so as to not break any of them. I carry the sack with caution in front of me. The vacuum cleaner is sitting on a shelf upside down in a closet. I grab it by the handle and turn it right side up and proceed to leave.

Outside is a woman sitting on the curb. I know her to be an Angel but in this dream she is without her wings appearing as a regular person. Since I am lucid, I know her too well. I recognize her even though she is appearing as a regular person her angelic qualities shine through her pale white skin. To temper her brilliance she is wearing a black pearl choker. She is playing with some of the crystals from my chandelier moving them around like chess pieces on the sidewalk. Apparently I had not retrieved all of the pieces. She brings light to the dirty pieces exposing them for all to see.

At this point I’m angry with God for exposing my vulnerabilities and my dirty crystals and the fact that some have escaped my grasp. I grab the Angel by her pearl necklace and demand the return of my crystals. Forcibly I take them from her and release her from my grasp.

I am so angry.

February 6, 2009

Addicted to Cold Cream

Cold Cream Last night I had a dream where I am living with my extended family in a big house. I have a son in his late teens or early twenties who is mentally challenged. There are some animosities among the family members because many have there own personal agendas they’d like to see materialize and some of those agendas conflict with one another. Because of my son’s disability, we all share in the responsibility of his care. Of course being that he is my son, he is my primary responsibility.

On this day, I am away from the house for a short period of time. While I am gone someone in the house purposely gave my son access to cold cream. My son is addicted to cold cream. When I arrive back at the house, I find him in the corner gorging himself with cold cream. I am infuriated because I know this could have only happened on purpose. I inform my mother who is unaware of the situation. She has a look of surprise as her eyebrows go up and her eyes enlarge to the size of grapefruit in total disbelief.

As I go into action to bring justice to the situation, I experience a false awakening. I am aware I am having a false awakening. I am now standing in my bedroom and my roommate is standing beside me hunched over trying to hide from me. I can see the dream I just left appear a like another dimension before me. Everything is fuzzy. It is as if life paused for a moment in a state of timelessness. Knowing my roommate is responsible for the cold cream incident I place my arm around him and tell him that he must go back into the dream. I know for justice to be served he can not remain in this in between state where he has too much influence over the events in my life.

With the full pressure of my body and a forward thrust of my hips I push him forward returning him to the dimension of the dream from which we came. Now that he is back in the dream I am confronted by the faces of others as they float one by one in front of me. These faces are talking to me but I can’t hear what they are saying I can only see there lips move.

A worm hole opens up and suddenly I’m in another dimension. Before me I can see my reflection but it is more than just a reflection it is the other half of who I am. Knowing this I struggle to get my attention. I think if I can touch myself I can get my attention but in my present state I am an ethereal being unable to apply pressure to make my presence known. I finally figure out a way to touch myself such that I might question what is going on. He (the other part of me) turns to look at me. Things seem to be happening in slow motion. As he turns to look at me a wave of energy goes forward from my being in his direction. I can see the wave brush against his face. He becomes aware of my presence.

An 1814 poem credited to “Dr. Russell” gives the following account of the benefits attributed to cold cream in that day:
WHEN a pot of cold cream to Eliza you send,
You with words to this purpose your present commend;
Whoe’er with this cream shall her countenance smear,
All redness and roughness will strait disappear,
And the skin to a wonder be charmingly clear;
If pimples arise, this will take them away;
If the small-pox should mark you, those marks will decay;
If wrinkled through age, or dawbing the face is,
‘Twill be smooth in a trice, as the best Venice glass is;
All this and much more, could I spare time to write it,
Or my pen go as fast, as your lips would endite it)
You affirm of your cream: and I would not abuse it,
But pray tell me one thing–Do you yourself use it?

October 6, 2008

My Name is Interpol

Last night, I was visited by a group of extraterrestrials from another dimension. Their lead identified himself as Interpol. He said his name means “communication.” At the time of their visit I was stricken with sleep paralysis and therefore stuck in limbo in between worlds. I could clearly see them standing by my bed partially materialized. They then took me on a journey to their world. There I met a friend whom I refer to as Ben. We walked along their streets and sat in a tiny cabaret. I noticed how everything was so crisp and clean. It was dark out and a moon was hovering closely in the night sky. I felt a bit uncomfortable in their world. We spoke at length about the things we like to do. We both mentioned how we both enjoy a good smoke.

He noticed I was uncomfortable so he asked if there was something I needed. I asked him if we could go outside; out in the open air to walk again. He agreed. Before stepping out in the open there was a display window in the cabaret with various after dinner items. One of the items was a box which had three cigars. I instinctively reached for one of the three cigars. He reached for the second one. I then offered him mine as a gesture of my appreciation. We both smoked off the same cigar.

We then found ourselves in an open pasture that belonged to a nursery for plants. The caretaker gave me a box with a hundred dollar bill in it and a certificate of ownership and deed to the property. He said it was for me. This was my inheritance he said. I was overwhelmed at the gestures. I knew this was everything I ever wanted. I knelt on the ground to see and smell how fertile the soil was. When I kelt I noticed there was a path, a road that lead from my new property to the moon. It was an incredible sight. In disbelief, I stood up and noticed in the sky a red light coming toward us. I knew this was the beacon for the mother ship. I looked squarely into the light waving my arms over my head to flag the ship down.

The entire ship came in closer as it materialized fully in the night sky. I assisted it in landing on my new property. I could clearly see all the details of the ship. I was asked if I could smell their ship as if it smelled bad but I could not smell anything unpleasant. They then came out of the craft to greet me standing beside my bed.

My awareness came full circle again back to the now. My name is Interpol he said it means communication. He then took me on another journey to see the school where I had received my education. There I ran into an old friend named Mary. We reminisced about her wedding where we were in the presence of our mutual friends. I was carrying a backpack at the time with school supplies. I was responsible for assisting with registrations at the school.

My awareness came full circle again back to the now. My name is Interpol he said.

The whole night I could not move. I couldn’t even move to grab my voice recorder so what I did is I kept repeating the details of the dream in my mind so that I would not forget. It also helped that I needed to pee but I couldn’t get up for that either.

The first unusual thing that caught my attention was his name, Interpol. I had never even heard of it until I looked it up in Wikipedia.

INTERPOL is the world’s largest police organization. INTERPOL’s mission is to assist law enforcement agencies in each of its 186 member countries to combat all forms of transnational crime. Its six areas of priority are: drugs and criminal organizations, public safety and terrorism, financial and high tech crimes, trafficking of human beings, corruption, and fugitives.

The second thing was the cigars and the issue of smoking. I don’t smoke cigars or cigarettes. Somehow I equate the smoke with peace, harmony and tranquility.

Cigars are often smoked to celebrate special occasion: the birth of a child, a graduation, a big sale.

June 29, 2008

The Jesus Man: A Gateway For Immigrants

I had a dream where I hear someone say from behind me, “Maybe you should use easy off to clean the oven.” I turn around to see where that off the wall comment came from. There is a man entering the room. He is a renegade. He is wearing burlap over his face and hands because he lives and works in the sand. He is a renegade sandman. From his unusual comment and the burlap bag over his face, I believe him to be one of my alien visitors. With this awareness, I become lucid in the dream. I offer to shake his hand. Somewhat apprehensive he slowly puts his hand out to meet mine. I remain there motionless without withdrawing my arm waiting for him to make contact with my extended hand. Finally he gains the courage and forthright to do so. In this process I become 100% lucid. I want to feel his hand even though he is still wearing the burlap over both hands. He slowly grabs my hand. I am utterly amazed at the physical sensation of the touch of his hand in mine. I CAN FEEL HIS PHYSICAL TOUCH. Although I am experiencing this in a dream I know he is not a dream. It is different than the normal touch of a human hand. His hand is very slender and his fingers long.

Finally he leans back and relaxes somewhat. We begin to talk. He is speaking to me in a language I know yet don’t recognize. I struggle to determine if I am speaking orally or mentally within the dream. After a bit of idle conversation, I am certain we are communicating completely telepathically. I can hear his words in my mind, I understand them as I do English yet I don’t recognize them as English. I ask him what language he is speaking to me in. Before he can answer, I ask if it is Spanish. He laughs and replies, “No.” I understand from his laugh that we are speaking a universal language born of telepathy. It is a language of pure thought in the framework of one mind.

He begins telling me of his many struggles. Before I realize it, he has taken off his burlap mask, jacket and burlap gloves. He is now sitting before me barechested with just his pants. He is a very good looking man who I find attractive. He has scratches on his chest; minor wounds from the many battles he has fought. In telling me about his struggles, I realize he is also describing the cause for which I am here. I realize we share a common story, heritage and purpose. He then tells me about a man who came down to New York to be born. He refers to this man as the Jesus Man. I know he is referring about me but I am confused as to his reference to New York. I live in Washington, DC but I am absolutely certain he is talking about me. I want to hear everything he is telling me so I don’t interrupt him to ask for clarification. I am afraid he may withhold information if I give him the impression that I know who he is referring to. He then starts telling me about my death; the death of the Jesus Man. He then says that his mother died that following January.

Bearing news of my mother a part of me wants to run and see my mother. My consciousness splits and a part of me is now with my mother and another part of me is still sitting with him listening to him recount the events of the cause for which we are fighting. Seeing my mother I want to tell her about her death but I realize I can’t share this information with her. I simply tell her that I love her and I return to my conversation with the Sandman.

I am looking deep into the man’s eyes. I can see them changing. I can see symbols in his eyes. Believing the dream is about to end, I wake up to grab my voice recorder but in the background I hear, “The shuttle craft is about to launch in 15 minutes.” Oh my God, they are on their way but where are they going? Should I be going with them? With my voice recorder in hand, I decide to stick around for a few more minutes to see if I can get more information on what is happening now and where they are going.

Back in the dream, I can feel something on my back. I reach behind me and pull a uniform that is attached to my back and I throw it down on the floor in front of me. It lands in between both of us. Laying on the ground it looks like a deflated person. He is still talking to me but his words are no longer registering. I then hear over a loud speaker, “The shuttle is about to launch.” Where are they going? New York possibly?

I immediately opened my eyes to record the details of the dream and quickly set the voice recorder down to return to the dream. Upon my return, I saw a group of people standing under a sign that read Orothanos. I somehow understood my house to be a gateway for incoming travelers into this dimension.

Confused by parts of the dream I looked up the word Orothanos which I could not find anything similar to it. In the dream, I had to sound it out because it was a word I had never seen before. Each letter of the word was contains in a sphere. The closest I could come to it was the word Oranos or Ouranos which means Uranus.

Uranus is the Latinized form of Ouranos, the Greek word for sky. In Greek mythology Uranus (often cited as Ouranos), Father Sky is personified as the son and husband of Gaia, Mother Earth (Hesiod, Theogony).

I also wanted to find out the symbolic meaning of New York.

New York City, which is the largest city in the United States, is known for its history as a gateway for immigration to the United States and its status as a financial, cultural, transportation, and manufacturing center.

Liberty Enlightening the World (French: La liberté éclairant le monde), commonly known as the Statue of Liberty (French: Statue de la Liberté), was presented to the United States by the people of
France in 1886. It stands at Liberty Island as a welcome to all visitors, immigrants, and returning Americans.

Worldwide, the Statue of Liberty is one of the most recognizable icons of the United States, and, more generally, represents liberty and escape from oppression.

That is absolutely powerful. WOW!!

Now at first pass I didn’t even stop to consider the meaning behind the word Jesus. I assumed it was merely a reference to my strong spiritual convictions but then I decided to look it up. Does the name Jesus have a meaning.

Jesus of Nazareth also known as Jesus Christ, is the central figure of Christianity and is revered by most Christians as the incarnation of God. Muslims consider Jesus a prophet, and several other religions also consider him an important figure.

The name “Jesus” is an Anglicization of the Greek (Iēsous), itself a Hellenization of the Hebrew (Yehoshua) or Hebrew-Aramaic (Yeshua), meaning “YHWH rescues“. “Christ” is a title derived from the Greek (Christós), meaning the “Anointed One,” which corresponds to the Hebrew-derived “Messiah”.

So the meaning of the word Jesus is “YHWH rescues“.

May 18, 2008

You're Mona!

This afternoon at 3pm I was very tired and decided to lie down for a couple hours to take a nap. As is customary, I began my nap with a meditation. I quickly lost myself in the meditation and suddenly found myself across from a tall young man seated comfortable in a sofa. The man wore military fatigues and had a garrison cap resting on his knee. He was apparently preparing to go answer a call to service. He was telling me about the honor it is to serve his country. In the back of my mind I remembered that I was in the middle of a meditation. Alert now I paid very close attention to what he was sharing with me. In parting he said the best part of being away from home would be returning home to his wife. At that moment a woman walked through a nearby corridor and into the room. The gentleman stood up and leaned forward to kiss his wife goodbye.

I found it odd that he felt the need to display his affection in my presence. As she leaned in to receive the kiss, my attention was instantly drawn to the woman. Without thinking, I immediately stood up in the vision and walked over to her. Something about her was very familiar to me. I knew her. It then hit me and I blurted out to her, “You’re Mona.” I leaped at the chance to bring something concrete back with me from the other side so I moved in closer with determination within inches of her face. “You’re Mona,” I said. I was shocked at my sudden reaction. I had never seen her before but a part of me deep in my core knew exactly who she was.

Surprised she backed away puzzled saying, “What do you mean?” From her words, I knew she also knew exactly who I was. This was as much of a surprise to her, as seeing her for the first time was to me. With emphasis I looked deep into her eyes and replied, “I know who you are, you’re Mona.” The deeper I looked into her eyes the more I recognized my own eyes in hers. Her eyes were mine. Our foreheads pressed against each other. As her image faded all I could see were the pupils of her eyes reflecting my third eye.

I ended my meditation and opened my eyes in utter amazement. I quickly reached for my voice recorder but it was not in its usual position on the end table. “I must have left it down stairs,” I thought to myself. I then began to replay the events in my head to commit them to long term memory. All of the sudden details of the man’s life came flowing back like a damn that had given way. Many details poured in. What a time to forget my voice recorder down stairs. I knew everything about the man’s life.

Frustrated and simply too tired to get up I reveled in this new awareness deciding not to interrupt the flow to go look for it. I decided to simply trust that I would remember later everything that had been poured into my waking consciousness. I looked at my alarm clock. Thirty minutes had passed since I first laid down to meditate. I rolled over and quickly fell asleep.

Some time later I had a false awakening where I woke up thinking it was time to get back to my household chores but for some reason I could not get up. Looking around the room everything looked as it should. I then reached over to look at my alarm clock but noticed I could not see my arm yet I felt its movement. I knew I was having a false awakening. I also knew for me false awakenings are the perfect opportunity to trigger an out of body experience. To confirm, I moved my hands in front of my face and could not see them. I then tried gently to roll myself out of my body, but I couldn’t. No matter how hard I tried I could not detach myself from my body. I remained calm, knowing I’ve been able to do this before. Once again I tried to will my body out. I rolled slightly to my side and swung my legs to the left. I was able to sit up. I then calmly stood. I was free. I had done it I was free from my body. I waled over to the foot of my bed to look across at a mirror I have hanging in my bedroom. No reflection. I could not see myself in the light of the afternoon sun that shown through my window. I looked down at my body to see streams of energy flowing down through me creating what looked like a long flowing robe of many colors. I moved in slow motion like a man on the moon. My etheric body seemed to glide gracefully with ease.

I thought to myself, “You’ve done it, you’ve done it.” I then heard another little voice in my head say, “what if you have died. What if you can’t find your way back.” At that point I really didn’t care. The voices could say whatever they wanted, I simply didn’t care. I was where I wanted to be. If I had died in my sleep I was happy to finally be free. It was beautiful I danced around the room experiencing what it was like to be pure essence. I was in no hurry to go back. I danced and danced and danced. As I twirled, I caught a glimpse of my left hand through the mirror protruding from underneath my covers. I paused to look at my hand through the mirror. I then saw another hand gently caressing my hand and forearm. Was it possibly my right hand? Was my body moving? I then moved in closer to the mirror. No it was a hand very distinct from mine with very long bony fingers and long nails.

“Who is messing with my body? I guess it’s time to go back.” I then closed my eyes and willed myself back. I instantly found myself back in my body underneath the covers. I could feel the weight of someone on my body but I could not see anyone. I still was in the false awakening because I could not see my own hand either yet I knew we were both very much present, but who was this other person? I struggled to move but couldn’t. I was locked in my body once again. The struggle woke me up. Yes I was now back.

I immediately sat up to run downstairs to retrieve my voice recorder. I looked over at my nightstand and there on the opposite side of my nightstand was my wallet and the voice recorder. It had been there all along just not where it normally is; within easy reach.

I quickly recorded all the details. To my misfortune I could no longer remember any details of the man’s life other than the year 1926 and the name Eric. He was a corporal.

I did my normal research first keying off the name Mona. I wondered if the name had any meaning or significance. The only thing I could fine was the Mona Lisa. At first I discounted it until I scrolled down the page to find where they focused on the hands of the Mona Lisa. Just as in my dream it the Mona Lisa has rather large hands and it looks like one hand is caressing the other. Another interesting fact that I didn’t know about the Mona Lisa is the pyramid. I’m planning a trip to Egypt? I couldn’t help but wonder if the dream was encouraging me to go.

I then moved on to the military man. He was a corporal. Looking up the word, I was surprised to find a very spiritual meaning of the word

from the doctrine that the bread of the Eucharist becomes or represents the body of Christ

Leonardo used a pyramid design to place the woman simply and calmly in the space of the painting. Her folded hands form the front corner of the pyramid. Her breast, neck and face glow in the same light that models her hands. The light gives the variety of living surfaces an underlying geometry of spheres and circles.