Pieces of the Puzzle

February 5, 2020

Last night’s dream had to have been one of the most colorful and playful dreams I’ve ever had. I know I’ve probably said that before and in their own right all the dreams that have claimed that title have been absolutely wonderful but this one is on my mind now and for it being recent it has my focus and awe. In this dream, I am witnessing my life moving through all the many rooms and scenic landscapes which piece together the visages of my life.

As I look carefully at the detail with which the dream has rendered it in my mind I notice it is held together like puzzle pieces. Each puzzle piece perfectly laid and locked in place. Nowhere is there a puzzle piece out of place. The pieces go on forever. Everything everywhere is held together. As I float through the dream experiencing it I am reminded Candyland. Everything is cartoon like in its simplicity, innocence and creativity. Its a peaceful place. I hear a narrator who begins to tell the story. It is such a wonderful story. I think this is what inspires artists to write songs and sing. I wish I had my voice recorder handy to capture the words of the narrator. Not wanting to disturb the dream, I focus in on his words trying to commit it all to memory.

As the story comes to a climax, each puzzle piece becomes a tiny person with a light body much like a firefly. All pieces take flight at once. There is an overwhelming sense of joy and freedom. The feeling overcomes me causing me to focus in on my body. Who am I in this dream? What body do I have now? I look at myself to find I too am a firefly with a light body.

Are You Afraid of Me?

How to spoon | BosGuy

Last night as I was falling asleep I had a pre-dream where I knew I was in my bed trying to fall asleep. I felt my partner slip into bed with me and come in from behind to cuddle me. I loosened my arms to accept his embrace and settle back into the comfort of his chest. I feel his breath against my neck. After a moment, I he whispers in my ear, “Are you afraid of me?” With his words, I thought why would I be afraid of you? His words jar my awareness enough to question my present situation. I assumed he was Joe my ex partner but if he was Joe then this had to be a dream because Joe and I are no longer together. Still feeling his presence behind me I answered, “Who are you?” I snuggle his arm around my belly pulling him in closer. He then taps my forehead 3 times as if to tell me to wake up.

His tap on my head startled me. It was something I felt physically and was completely unexpected because my focus was on his chest and arm. I immediately thought, how did he do that? I knew at this point his embrace wasn’t physical but instead part of the dream. I took caution to try to remain in the dream, but unfortunately i came too. I then realized it was my my own fingers which I had on my head that provided the physical sense of tapping my head. I think he hit my funny bone which made my fingers twitch causing the taps.

Now awake I turned and to see my son Oliver quietly sleeping beside me. He was looking in my direction.

~~~~~ DREAM ENDS

This dream left me very startled because it crossed over into the physical. Even though it was my own hand tapping me the timing was not accidental. It signaled to me this was important but what could it possibly mean. Maybe this hold the key to possibly finding love again. Maybe its telling me I already have the love of my life and purpose for living my son who lays beside me. Maybe it is a question I need to seriously consider and who was this who settled into my bed.

Are you afraid of me?

Who are you?

Pegasus 2041

I had a very impressionable dream last night. In the dream I am told the O Street Mansion is going out of business. I’m sad to hear about the decision and ask why they have taken this decision. I’m told to look around to see if I can figure it out. After a few moments the woman who is guiding me says, “It’s haunted, look carefully at the kitchen.” In the kitchen I see a water leak in the kitchen above the sink. The water seems to be coming from a mysterious point of origin as if from another dimension with no point of origin in this dimension.

Something in me knows I have the power to fix the situation. I feel an intimate connection to this place. It seem to call to my name. I tell my guide I wish I could take over the business. She tells me I can but I must decide by midnight tonight. I express my doubts considering the enormous cost to conduct the business. She then tells me the business pretty much pays for itself all I have to do is claim it for myself. She tells me to consider it and decide within the time window allowed.

Still not convinced I can do it I decide to walk through the mansion. I seem to know the place well. It is very familiar to me. There used to be a stage where performances were conducted. I recall working here at one point in time. I also recall the ceiling chandelier was a Pegasus. My desire to see the Pegasus again causes me to take flight ascending high toward the ceiling where the Pegasus is located. I reach the Pegasus and examine as my recall expands. The Pegasus has a label. It appears to be a business card with the name of the business and the date 2041. At this point I become lucid knowing this is an important dream to bring back to my waking life.

Now fully lucid, I want to know more. I recall when I worked here the owner lived in the upper floor of the mansion where the ghosts also resided. She had the power to command the ghosts and keep them in line. With this knowledge my awareness expands. I now find myself in the top floor of the house. The owners quarters. I know only I have the means to solve this mystery. I then see my mothers purse. It is the purse I kept as a reminder of my mom after she passed away. I search through her purse and thumb through her billfold. There are several certificates. Oliver’s birth certificate is here along with the deed to the title of the mansion.

“I accept, I accept and I expect to get the parking space.”

~~~~~~~ DREAM ENDS

After saying I accept in the dream, I immediately woke up. It was such an important dream I felt I had to record it. Initially I thought the dream was telling me how long I would live, ie till the year 2041 when I too would leave a purse behind. Why else would that year be so important.

Today I received word my aunt and godmother passed away. She was my mom’s sister. I’m sure the dream was indicating her passing as well.

In Two Places at Once

In this dream I find myself at my mom’s walkway toward her house. I can see her front door and her neighbors door which is immediately adjacent to her door much like a mirrored image. I see a woman turn the corner and open the door. She is wearing my moms pink blouse. I quickly move to follow her into her unit. As I approach I realize I am seeing double. There is a duplicate woman entering simultaneously into the adjacent door. I am confronted with a dilemma which of the two should I follow?

I decide I can’t afford to loose sight of her since I believe it is my mom. I split my consciousness and enter both doors at once. Once inside the apartments I realize the apartment is connected inside to the other half. Although I don’t see my mom anymore I know I am in her home. The right home. I have a sense of peace. I sit on the couch relieved to be home. As I sit there content I fall into a dream.

I am now having a dream within a dream. In the dream I recreate the steps taken to have my son. My loins fill with a sexual feeling of ecstasy. I understand how my consciousness split to create Oliver. I feel like I am hyperventilating with an overwhelming feeling of euphoria. I when I come to from the inner dream I see my son’s face. His eyes pierce my soul and I awaken from the dream.

Daddy

November 25, 2019

In last night’s dream I am with my son. He is an infant in real life but here in the dream he is a bit older like around the 12 month mark. He looks at me and says, “Daddy.” I am shocked because he has not spoken any words yet so for me to hear the first word out of his mouth as Daddy is very touching to me. It is at this point I realize he looks different. His hair is golden and he has strands of hair partially cover his face.

Cross Roads

November 12, 2019

This is a group of dreams I had recently that I haven’t been able to journal because of time constraints. I think this is the first dream I’ve journaled since the birth of my son Oliver. Being a parent now in the early days is exhausting but I felt I needed to get back to journaling.

In this first dream, I am needing to summon my strengths. I’m not sure what strengths are needed or why but I vaguely remember praying for advice and the strength to carry on at home with Oliver and with deal with my loneliness in not having a relationship; my two biggest desires Oliver and a relationship. In the dream, I seem to have come into a state of knowing within the dream a sort of awakening at a the point immediately after I have given my supplications. As my awareness expands with the answer I am told I already have what I need at my disposal I simply need to summon it up. I am in my dining room and see the two crosses I have hanging on the wall each representing the crosses of my mom and dad when they died.

I somehow know I can call on the strength of Jesus through the love and memories of my mom and dad. Yet I still have doubts I can do this. Knowing the dream cannot be wrong I decide to try to reach within myself and do as instructed by summoning the power from within. I begin to feel a well spring rising within me as the walls begin to move. The walls spread apart to embrace a greater space. I realize it really does work for me to believe.

Encouraged by my success I continue to pull from within. The walls continue expanding to reveal an ocean where from the horizon comes toward me the body of Christ in the air. Unlike the two crucifixes which hung on the dining room walls this body is an illuminated body.

In the next dream I am returning to a previous dream. It is the second time I have been here. I am downtown where I work. Since it has been so long I am trying to remember where the metro is located. I think once I find the metro I will be able to find my way home. I start walking and take a turn. I quickly become disoriented and can’t remember in which direction to go. I reach for my cell phone to look up the directions but my cell phone is different. It has features I am unfamiliar with. The camera is on as if it is recording my actions. I am unable to pull up a map on the phone because the camera will not stop recording.

I continue to walk and pass by a group of people. I ask them to give me directions. They recognize me as one who is not from the area and they refuse to give me any assistance. I have to figure it out for myself. I continue walking and run across a second group of people this group is colleagues from work. Again I attempt to ask them believing they will be favorable to assisting me. From my question, they can easily identify me as a foreigner to this place again they refuse to answer. One within the group signals me indicating it is the wrong type of question. I have to find a way to get the answer indirectly.

The next group of people I come across I decide to change my approach. Instead of them dismissing me I immediately dismiss them. I decide to tell them to take a hike. They shrug me off in return indicating I can ride the train out ie their way of telling me to take a hike, I thereby get an indication of where the train station might be locate. I now know the metro is in the direction of the shrug.

In this next dream, I meet a guy with whom I am developing a relationship. He takes me to his condo. Come to find out he has a unit in Sunset Harbor South. My ex an I used to have a condo in Sunset Harbor North. A part of me knew someday I would return to this place. I am standing on the balcony overlooking the bay. It is a corner unit from which I have a view of Sunset Harbor North. Knowing exactly where I am I tell him we are in Sunset Harbor South. He is somewhat surprised I am able to determine my location.

Plasma Kiss

August 11, 2019

Last night I had a super cool dream. It happened right as I was waking up. In the dream, I can see the universe in some primordial fog that is percolating like in a cauldron. The fog is captivating. I recognize it as something very special from which all things originate. My view of it is partial. Sensing there is much to this which is unknown to me, I feel myself levitating and in so doing, I am offered a new vantage point from which to experience the whole of creation. I now see the entire universe before my eyes.

As I levitate higher and higher, I feel as if I have detach from my body. I turn to my right to look in the direction where I stood previously. In turning, I see the profile of 3 eyeballs lined up sequentially almost as if I am looking at myself in a mirror within a mirror. A ray of lightning reflects in each eye creating a very long horizontal thunderbolt. The sight reminds me of one of those plasma balls with the electrical currents passing through it.

I sense this is something very special.

A moment before I opened my eyes I felt a kiss on my temple beside my eye and I heard its pucker. It was the same kind of kiss I give my dog in the morning filled with an intense love. Someone kissed me. In that moment, I felt very special and loved. Someone in the universe loves me.

~~~~~~ DREAM ENDS

So today I had scheduled to take my car in for maintenance. While waiting for my car to be ready I decided to check out to new model cars. The first car I sat in had interior lights which ran in a horizontal line from the left door, across the dashboard, and continued along the right door. It felt like my dream all over again. The light had a neon illumination and was the same color as the lightening bolt reflected in the eyes from my dream.

I ended up buying a new car a Mercedes GLE350. In some peculiar way, I felt the universe was giving its blessing (kiss) to make this purchase. Considering the laundry list of items that needed repair on my old car, I believe it was time for a new car.

Jester: The Milk is in the Television

August 6, 2019

Last night I crawled into bed with the animals an each one had a few minutes of cuddle time. I then remembered I had forgotten to my bottle of water so I got up to retrieve it. Upon return I noticed something in the corner of my eye near the back door of the basement as I laid my head down once again for a second time. I zoomed in with my mind squinting to try to bring it in focus. It looked like someone was standing in the corner. As I began to slip away I held my attention on this person. The person came into focus. It was a Jester. With tight pants slightly bent over with a cane or walking stick. I was nowhere near passed out yet. He motioned with his arm extended to come with him. His arm pointing to the path I should follow to come toward him. Resisting sleep I held on for a more conscious visit with the Jester. He finally got tired of waiting so he walked toward me. I was in shock. Three step in, I waved to him, to let him know I was not asleep. I also got a good look at him. He had a gentle smile and olive skin. A warm and welcoming face. I asked myself if this could be OB come to visit but something inside me said, No why would he come as a Jester. With that I fell deep into dream land.

I find myself sitting on a chair that is flying over a river. The river is turquoise blue with some sections being deeper that others evident by a deep aqua color. The scene was spectacular. I seem to recognize this river. I have been here before.

I am able to travel in the chair both backward and forward and there seems to be no way for me to fall out of the chair. There is no seat belt of anything of the sort. We come upon a place where I live. It is a huge house with many rooms and many guests who stay with me.

Much time passes and life is good there. However the area is affected by global warming and one day it is a particularly hot and scorching day. We are walking outside on the asphalt and I notice my shoes are sticking to the ground. I hurry to stand under a tree to take advantage of the shade. The earth is quaking from the heat and my house is destroyed.

Walking though the house now in shambles I look around for what has survived the destruction. To my surprise some very important things still survive. Those who live in the walls are still there. They have never had air conditioning to survive the heat and to this day don’t require it. I peak in and see them there. They welcome me in. I think I too could live in the walls within the ruins of what once was my home. I am sensing it is time to return and wake up from the dream.

I am taken again seated in the chair flying over the river which is still as beautiful as the day I arrived. It has not been affected by the turmoil. I recall the Jester and my descent into dreamland. I want to bring back something but what? I think hard trying to decide what in the world could I bring back from this dream into my waking life to prove I was here. I decide to ask the dream for something. Attempting for formulate my verbal question I am having difficulty verbalizing the words but I am determined. As I wake up the words begin to come forth. I politely ask, “Can I have the milk that is in the television”

Natures Way: Asserting Privilege

June 24, 2019

Last night’s dream was very interesting and somewhat a first for me. I seem to be more ballsy, assertive and determined in my dream. In this one, I am enrolled as a student in a University much like Hogwarts. It is for the most elite kids with special abilities and a society unto itself. I however am not a kid. I have returned to the school as an adult after having been gone for a long long time.

In this scene I find myself in a restroom stall trying to have a private moment when I discover others can look into my stall both from above and through the cracks in the walls and door. I am seated. I discretely pause for a moment without them being clued in to the fact I am fully aware of their presence. I too can see through the walls just like they can see in to my personal space. I decide to reach my hand under the stall and reach up and grab the guy’s leg to pull him down not with the intent of stopping him from looking over into my space but with a firm assertion I am in control. They are flabbergasted I am able to affect their space. I am no longer helpless and a victim to their whims.

When I reached under I disturbed a deck of cards which were sitting in front of me. They were a deck of pictures. They complain to me about my having disturbed the deck. I assert the deck has a new alignment but the images are generally in the same spaces they were in before. With my finger I move the cards grouping the ones which were moved. The changes caused by slightly shuffling the deck places us on even footing just long enough for me to assert myself and be credible in my powers within this realm.

I quickly move to assert myself. I find the lead guy and confront him. I displace him 3 times pausing between each displacement long enough to throw him off his footing and allowing him to question what is happening. How did we get here? To throw him off further and to equal the playing field I displace him yet again for a second and third time. On the final displacement I order him to a new position. I give him an office space where I tell him he can still do all the things he liked doing previously but this new space affords him privacy in his actions. This is how we will play the game. These are the rules of the game. This is how it will be.

Their confusion arises out of the fact that only students can be in this school. Even though I am older I have standing here because I too am taking a class. They seemed to be unaware of the class I’m taking. Now I have to prove to them I have the grades to support my education. Since I am part of another dimension and only transiting through theirs I exclaim my work has been done within my waking dimension. I show them the points of contact between the two dimensions and I reveal my grades which have registered as complete in their realm. They are amazed I have found a way to manipulate the rules in my favor to gain leverage and standing in their realm.

Now I must operate in their realm. I walk up to the chalk board to present my work. They have no clue what is yet to come. Whoosh as if by magic…I describe how the seasons change and how I am able to enhance the colors within each season by using my plants and landscape to add color and depth to my world.

~~~~~ DREAM ENDS

I woke up at 6:30 am. My sleep wasn’t very deep through out the night. I had to be on my toes. Parts of the dream kept repeating with underlying messages. I had on my mind my decision on whether I should accept the job offer that came in this past Friday. Throughout the dream there was a clear sense of confidence in what I was doing and what needed to be done. I think this is the right job for me. Given the number of times the messages repeated I am confident I am making the right decision.

A note on the man I displaced the lead person was no one but me. This too felt like the dream I previously had about David Butler where I am the other person. This is why I am able to achieve an equal footing because we both have legitimate standing. We both exist as one concurrently and independently.

Cat Nap Sketch

June 7, 2019

This vision happened yesterday when I laid down to take a cat nap. I was feeling very tired and shortly after closing my eyes and before falling into dreamland I began seeing scenes play out. Not uncommon for me to see images like this what was a first is the images were animated sketches. I viewed entire scenes play out with these people and picturesque settings with trees and nature. People going about their daily lives out in what appeared to be a nature setting. I’ve never seen sketch art in my dream and for it to be animated I thought of the level of efforts and creativity my minds eye had to exercise to create such a thing.

The scenes were playing out a a very rapid speed and in some places scenes were spliced together to create of change of scenery. It was like a coming together of various ideas to create something new.

The scenes reminded me of the music video for the 1984 song Take On Me by A-Ha

Lyrics – Take On Me – A-Ha 1984

We're talking away
I don't know what
I'm to say I'll say it anyway
Today's another day to find you
Shying away
I'll be coming for your love, okay?

Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two

So needless to say
I'm odds and ends
But I'll be stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is okay
Say after me
It's no better to be safe than sorry

Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two

Songwriters: Pal Waaktaar / Morten Harket / Magne FuruholmenTake On Me lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC