December 2nd, 2018
This is a difficult dream to journal. In the dream I have been interested in a guy for a long time. I follow him around without him knowing I am interested in him. I do this for many days, weeks and years. One day he finds out I am interested in him but by this time I have already met Travis in my waking life. Here is where it gets a bit confusing because several timelines are happening at the same time. For what feels like an eternity I have been interested in him but have never shown or expressed my interest to him. I remember hugging him from behind on many occasions in a friendly loving way. On this given day he walks by me and pauses. Someone else possibly a friend of his grabs him from behind the way I have always grabbed him from behind to hug him. He looks at me and I look at him. I say to myself, “This is how I hug him”. I wish he had known all this time how much I love him. He looks at me as if reading my mind.
There is another parallel scene where I walk behind him wishing he had known how much I love him. I think to myself if he was to turn around right now …… he turns around and looks at me and with his look he acknowledges he really does love me the way I love him.
Now going back to the first scene as he is being hugged from behind he turns to me and says I should meet him near the bathroom. But now I have to tell him I found someone I like and am no longer available. So I head toward the bathroom. I never really end up at the bathroom instead I seem to find him everywhere I go. No matter where I go, he is there. I am confused because it feels like he is Travis except I’m not expecting Travis to be in my dream.