June 18, 2018
I had a dream that kept repeating all night long. Every time I rolled over or slightly woke to readjust myself or drink water (i was thirsty all night) I would think about the focus of the dream. The message was that something had to happen first; a side shoot process. I clearly see the process in my mind. I held it in my right hand and the main process is in my left hand. Everyone in my dream seems to want to jump the gun and move directly to the main process. I keep having to correct them and remind them about the process and showing them what is in my right hand which must come first. Everyone is excited about moving forward. The process seems to relate to the surrogacy. I describe the main process as getting pregnant and implanting the embryo. The side process I equate to finalizing the legal contract which must come first. Every time I woke up during the night I felt so good about what was happening around me in the dream. I feel confident and assured in the process.
The last time I I woke up to roll over I began a new dream which served to clarified the process in my right. I am in a prison of sorts under confinement. I don’t necessarily belong here I just happen to appear in the dream in this place. My friend Quetta is with me. We are talking and talking and exploring the various realms within the dreamland. I sense it is time to go as the gates of the prison are closing. I believe they suspect I am here and want to confine me or entrap me. We start walking toward the exit or an opening which we believe to be the exit. As we approach, I sense this to be what the opposing force wants me to do to confine me. I am unafraid and therefore continue walking toward the opening. I pass by a set of windows where the guards are seated inside. I wave at them putting my thumbs in my ears and fanning my palms just like kids do to mock someone. They immediately react. I believe I caught them off guard not expecting me to approach this close to them within their territory. The opening becomes narrower and narrower. I remain unafraid. I’m told of an alternate route through which we can pass. There is a train beyond the opening. If we can make it onto the train we will be free. We seem to be high up on the walls looking down on the doors below us. If we are to leave through the doors we must descend the wall. Knowing I wouldn’t be able to descend a wall like that in physical form I choose instead to ascend using my dream powers. As I ascend, my body passes by a watch tower where another set of guards are stationed. Again they see me and scramble. I wave to them in the same way.
I now find myself on the train platform. The train has just arrived and the doors are now open. I embark the train but realize I have lost contact with my friend Quetta. I pause for a moment and wonder if he might have gotten on the train. Then I remember Quetta is passed away and is no longer with us on earth. Knowing he is ok and possibly still with me invisible I continue onto the train. I have no idea where I’m headed. I sit on the seat and remember I have left my car in the parking lot of the prison. Yet I’m not worried since I don’t seem to need it for the moment.
As the train departs, my consciousness takes flight. Instead of simply leaving this place I hover around taking note of what is happening below me. I recall other dreams where I am able to fly at extreme heights. I try to ascend to those heights but something seems to be holding me back. I am on the train. Trying a new thought, I wonder if I can possibly swivel my seat one would assume the train seat is fixed. With the thought my seat swivels responding to my want and desire. Once again I take the opportunity to swivel back and forth over the area now controlling the direction the train is going. I am able to overlook the space of my confinement to examine how things work here and learn the inner workings and relationships at play. Those who are following me are simply feet away.
I become aware Quetta is still with me somewhere at a distance. I am somehow still able to communicate with him. I tell him there are those who pursue me trying to impede my progress. I say it very matter of fact as an observation and simply move on with our conversation picking up where we had left off. I feel like a kite in the air flying too and fro with no real urgency to go in any which direction. I think eventually I may need to find a hotel to stay in and possibly reclaim my car. We decide to send someone else for my car and learn the vehicle has been removed and confiscated by the opposition. I lament briefly believing it was a nice Mercedes but thinking after all it is just a car.
The dream ends here but before it ended I am presented with a few images. The images look like pencil drawings; outlines. The first image has the most detail quite possibly the finished product a vision of what is to come. The screen is erased. A new image appears. I see every line being drawn on the canvas until the image is complete. It too is erased. Once again a new image appear slowly line by line. This process repeats with each iteration of the same image differing slightly and with each successive iteration becoming more simplified. The final few iterations vert simple and they serve as lessons on how the canvas is drawn. I am allowed to see the lines as they are drawn in slow motion. The lines have form and intent. I can see they are purposeful and not random.
IMAGE: Title: Penn’s greene country towne; pen and pencil sketches of early Philadelphia and its prominent characters
Year: 1903 (1900s)
Authors: Hotchkin, S[amuel] F[itch], 1833- [from old catalog]
Subjects: Penn, William, 1644-1718
Publisher: Philadelphia, Ferris & Leach
Contributing Library: The Library of Congress
Digitizing Sponsor: Sloan Foundation